i don't know you
but i want you
all the more for that

words fall through me
always fool me
and i can't react

games that never amount
to more than they're meant
will play themselves out...

take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time

raise your hopeful voice
you have a choice
you'll make it now

falling slowly
eyes that know me
and i can't go back

moods that take me and erase me
and i'm painted black

you have suffered enough
and warred with yourself
it's time that you won

take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time

raise your hopeful voice
you have a choice
you've made it now

falling slowly
sing your melody

i'll sing along

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in lecture today, we were shown the clip containing that song from the movie, once.
the second the lyrics sank in, i felt tears whirl around my eyes.

a lot has happened in the past couple of months: some major changes have taken place in my life; some of them have been very difficult. painful.

since then, i've gone through all the rifts... felt the sharp edges of every jarring memory. resented. hated. felt vacancy. bitterness. disappointment... even hopelessness.

and yet... through and through, i've found that all of those feelings were fleeting because eventually, i'd find myself floating upwards instead sinking down.
at the end of every fit, i can't help but feel a sense of... profound gratitude... for everything that's happened to me- the good and the bad seem equally vital and invaluable in retrospect.

it's in those moments of perfect clarity and apprehension that i find myself infused with strength and-
peering over my own walled citadel, i see the sun shining brightly overhead.
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nobody's wrong
nobody's right
keep moving on

shine on

we were made to
shine on